Ohhhh folks, I am a little depressed today. You know that big silence that happens after the holidays are over and the coming months of clouds and snow are staring you in the face? (well if you're from New England anyway...) I'm so there. There are lots of things happening in my life right now that are weighing heavily on my shoulders, fortunately my diet is not part of that pile. I'm feeling good, eating very well and sticking to the plan. Today is my next monthly followup with The Doc. I'm going to go in, say everything's fine, I feel good, and hopefully he'll say great, come back in three months and you can switch to monthly bloodwork. And then tomorrow I will call and make an appointment with one of the other docs I've been wanting to switch to. All I want is a doctor that understands gluten intolerance and supports me in my efforts to heal myself as naturally as possible. Simple, right? Unfortunately there aren't that many of those kinds of docs out there. But I'm determined to find one! I think I have a few good ones in mind.
I've been reading some Crohn's blogs lately and I have to tell you that I find it very difficult. Even though my doctor says my Crohn's is in the moderate to severe category, I don't feel like my symptoms are anywhere near as bad as a lot of other people out there. I don't go to the bathroom 15 times a day. I don't experience pain so bad that I can't move or wake up from it at night. I don't need surgery, I'm off steroids, I generally feel very well compared to others I've read about. I am very fortunate yes, but then I read these other peoples' stories and then all of a sudden that sharp pain that I get just to the side of my belly button is now an indication of a stricture and what if I might need surgery? And my gas is surely a sign of a blockage... you can die from those! You wouldn't believe some of the thoughts that pop into my head. I'm all about supporting others but I have to admit that I can't read these other blogs. It scares me. It causese me to feel worse than I actually am. And I also find myself wondering what on earth these people are eating?? I know I shouldn't be like that, but I also know that there are a lot of people out there with Crohn's that are following a "low residue diet" which essentially means, eat nothing but white toast and white rice. White toast. Also known as "plaster of paris for the intestines." I always want to ask them "have you ever tried a gluten free diet? I mean really tried it? It takes a while to feel better" but I can't because that would be rude and obnoxious of me and most of them will say that the doctor says it won't work. Of course the doctor says it won't work. But your meds aren't working either are they? So I say nothing and read on as they continue to suffer and maybe I'm wrong. Maybe gluten is not the root of all evil. Maybe Crohn's is really just one of those crazy diseases that doesn't care what you eat and will ruin your body no matter what you put into it... but I'm sorry, I just don't believe that. There are hundreds, if not thousands of people out there that are living proof that the right diet can control or even eliminate Crohn's. I intend to be one of those people.