It's a cold and rainy day here in Boston, where is that spring weather?? Oh yeah, I forgot, this is spring weather for Boston! Saturday was gorgeous, sunny and warm, I went outlet shopping with my cousin. Sunday was rainy and cold, did laundry, food shopping, the usual Sunday stuff.
The casein free experiment is going very well. I've been eating a lot of gluten and despite that, today I have more energy than I've had in probably the last year. It's awesome. Friday night I had a bit of a rough night, bathroom wise, so I popped a Pepto which I hate to do, but I had to. Now I have to wait for that to work it's way through my system. I hate that stuff! Otherwise, I feel great, hardly any pain, lots of energy. I even renewed my match.com subscription last night! I know that might sound strange, but I know that some of you will be able to relate. When you don't feel well and your stomach is a mess, the last thing you want to do is go out on dates.
When I was diagnosed with Crohn's and started blogging about it, my mom expressed her concern that I would let this take over my life. I thought that on the contrary, this was the best way to deal with everything. I still believe that, I've worked through a lot on this blog and it helps to know that there are others out there that benefit from it all. I realized recently though that fighting with my diet and dealing with the Crohn's was taking over my life. I go out with friends less, I most definitely avoid dating. I'm almost 29 and single, my friends are all getting married and having kids and while I used to have a healthy dating life, I've not had a real date in probably 2 years. I've liked being single, I've needed to be, but now I'm ready to put myself back out there. I'm actually really looking forward to it. Of course there are other factors that have kept me out of the dating scene, like an unhealthy relationship with a guy that doesn't love me back, which I'm making huge strides in breaking out of, finally. I'm ready to be treated right and taken care of, the way I deserve to be.
Anyway, so back to the diet part. Going casein free has been the best thing I've done so far. I still think that being gluten free is also hugely beneficial and most of the foods I eat are GF/CF. I need to find a balance that works for me and I finally feel like I'm getting close to it. I can't obsess over food anymore, it's driving me crazy!! I'm hoping to be able to change the direction of this blog just a little bit, make it more of a healthy eating blog than just a gf/cf blog. Still posting recipes and reviews and all that stuff, but less focus on the stress and frustration and more focus on delicious, wonderful and healthy food! I love to eat, no autoimmune disease is going to change that, so I'm just going to try to embrace the change and enjoy this new lifestyle that I'm really getting accustomed to. It really does get easier every day, especially when you really start to feel great!