Monday, June 29, 2009

Weekends.

Weekends, especially in the summer, are always the times when I lose my focus and wind up eating something I shouldn't. This weekend it started on Friday morning with that donut. Saturday started out ok with oatmeal and then a turkey sandwich but by the end of the day after two barbecues I had eaten brownies, chocolate candies, and ice cream cake. Yesterday it was a cheeseburger and another ice cream. Today my back and hips are killing me and my stomach is uneasy. I just said to my Father last week, "I've been eating really well and I feel fabulous" and now... not so much. The problem now is that I don't feel the affects right away anymore, so I eat one thing, I feel fine, and then I eat another, and another. A few minutes, hours, days later it hits me. I also did not get any exercise in but I'm not too worried about that. So basically, I'm sitting at work, drinking lots of water, not eating any dairy and hoping this passes soon. Thankfully it's a short week and then a 4 day weekend! I can't wait.

Friday, June 26, 2009

A love/hate relationship with my ceiling fan, and Jillian Michaels

Last night was a cardio night because I had done a full weight workout the night before. I didn't feel like going to the gym and sitting on a machine for 30 minutes so I browsed through the on demand videos on cable. I started with a yoga fitness fusion workout but I only lasted 10 minutes. Then I found Jillian's 30 Day Shred, level one. I knew there would be some strength involved, but I just figured I'd use really light weights. My apartment is decent sized but the issue is that I'm 6' tall and there's a ceiling fan in the living room! My bedroom is just too small to get a good workout in. So I just did the best I could with the space away from the fan. Luckily, there were no incidents. The workout was a good one and I felt great after it was done. Today I'm feeling all around gross and I think it's because 1. I started my day with a plain donut and 2. the only thing I've eaten since 7:30 this morning (the donut) is a nectarine. That just doesn't work. So by 11am I had a splitting headache and felt like I was going to pass out so I went to get an early lunch. Ham sandwich. It was just what I needed. I still feel a little spacey but that's ok. I really put my body through the ringer this week with all the workouts and the abrupt change in diet. I know that it's all good and I'm going in the right direction but today I'm finding it hard to even type this blog because my arms are sore! I'm looking forward to taking a rest night tonight and just laying low. I'm so glad it's Friday!!!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Just do it. Like Nike.

Last night I got in an awesome workout at the gym, half hour of cardio on this new Precor machine that is a cross between an elliptical, a stair climber, and a trampoline... yeah I know, weird right? But fun. And killer on the legs. Then I did a solid strength training circuit. I feel great and I must have been retaining a ton of water because I've lost 5 pounds since Monday. I felt like a sausage in my clothes yesterday and today I feel normal again. It's really great. I signed up on the Clean Eating forums and it is a huge help. There are tons of threads about recipes, tips, support, answers to just about any question you have.. but it's a pretty simple thing. Eat as close to nature as possible. Exercise. Drink lots of water.

Today has been another successful day so far. I'm running low on groceries but I've been doing great with making healthy choices if I have to go grab something. I've been eating a lot more fruit and veggies which is great, I'm sure that was a big help with flushing out that water retention.

Finally my nectarines are ripe!!!

Nectarine

This was sooooooo delicious and juicy, hold the napkin under your chin kind of juicy. I always think back to when I was little and my mom would buy these for me and my Dad and I'd eat them out in the yard, juice all over my hand and dripping down my arm.

Pineapple

And I also picked up this tub on pineapple this morning on my way to work. So good!

Tonight I'll do some form of cardio and then maybe some yoga. I could really use some deep stretching after the tough workout from last night.

I'm considering registering a domain for this blog. Sugar and spice.com is already taken, your sugar and spice is not, which is the address for the blog now but I'm thinking about changing it. Any ideas?

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

And now I will talk about Clean Eating... again.

Lunch Time!

I am a magazine junkie, I LOVE them. I love to read them but most of all I love to look at the differences in magazine design. Today I grabbed the latest issue of the Improper Bostonian which is one of my favorites, and it's free, which makes it that much better.

Lunch was Souper Salad, a delicious salad of romaine, spinach, cucumbers, green peppers, red onions, chickpeas, edamame, cherry tomatoes, hard boiled egg, turkey and a little tiny dusting of bacon bits. And a sliver of pita bread. For desert, grapes, watermelon and pineapple. Perfectly ripe pineapple is the most divine fruit. It's always been my ultimate favorite. Rachel Ray taught me that in order to tell if a pineapple is perfectly ripe, just look at the "eyes" and if they are all the same size, then it's ripe. I've also read that if it's a little yellow at the bottom that means the sugars have developed and that also means it's ripe. And it should smell delicious, if you pick one up and it doesn't smell good, it's not gonna taste good.

The other day I posted about that article that I read in Clean Eating magazine. I know I've talked about eating clean on this blog before. I have all the books and have recently subscribe to the magazine as well as the email newsletter, and now am also signed up on the forums. I'm thinking this is ultimately the approach I'm going to take to my diet. Which really, just means eating VERY healthy. Eat six small meals a day, which I already do, that contain complex carbs and lean protein, along with some healthy fats and the occassional treat. Emphasis on occassional. That doesn't mean twice a day every day, sadly. And ramping up my exercise routine. Which at this point means starting an exercise routine. One of the most important aspects of the Clean Eating lifestyle is NOT counting calories. It promotes an unhealthy relationship with food and can lead to behaviors such as bingeing which you know I'm all too familiar with. I'm gonna give it a go and see what happens. I feel good about it. I'm ready for it now. I can do it!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Bob rocks my world.

Last night I got home from work and had every intention of going to the gym. I walked in the door and thought that I might just take one minute of rest on the couch. Then I realized that I was hungry! But there was not much food in the house, so of course I needed to go to the grocery store. I picked up some steak and peppers and onions, went home, stir fried them up and had dinner. It's now 7:30ish. I need to be ready to watch Jon & Kate announce their separation at 9 so I clearly don't have enough time to go to the gym! I have to do something. No more of this sitting around and doing nothing! So I remember that there's exercise tv on demand and I check it out. I think I'll do some yoga. Well, what do you know, there's yoga with Bob!! -->

Yoga is supposed to be calming right? No this was not a calming evening yoga session, this is yoga for weight loss, which translates loosely to "bring on the pain". Ok so it wasn't that bad, I'm just a little out of practice. Not to mention that I have about a 4'x6' space to workout in, and I'm 6' tall... at one point I kicked my makeup table and bottles of lotion and hairspray went flying. Awesome. But I'm glad I did it. And I still love Bob.

Jon & Kate was sad. If you missed it, here's what happened: The kids got new crooked houses to play in, which were really cool, that company is gonna make a lot of money off of that episode. Kate is sad because she doesn't want to be alone. Jon is excited for the new chapter in his life, "I'm only 32!" he says, which sounds to me like "waaahoooo time to get back my twenties!!!" which he's obviously already been trying to do. He also made a comment about the papparazzi being all up in his business and how there are soldiers dying in Iraq but they are more concerned about what he eats for lunch.... dude seriously??? You and your wife put your family into the public eye, you got what you asked for. If you really wanted video to document your kids lives you should've bought a camcorder.

On a lighter note, I bought some nectarines last night and they're in a paper bag getting ripe. I can't wait to eat one, they are my favorite!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Clean Eating Mag, Gluten, Acne, and 5 Pounds.

Clean Eating Article

There is a great article in the current issue of Clean Eating magazine about cravings and serotonin and dopamine levels. It talks about bad habits that we create and the way they trigger cravings, like for example when you automatically grab a candy bar at the checkout each time you go to the grocery store, and how to break those habits. It's funny how I won't even be hungry but just the thought of eating a cookie, and that feel good response I get from that cookie, will make me into a raving lunatic until I get that cookie!

Sadly, I've gained, rather than lost weight in the past few months. I also am having some serious skin issues. I haven't had this much trouble with my skin in a long time, which makes me wonder, is re-introducing gluten into my diet causing my skin to react? It's possible I suppose. Because I haven't really changed any other habits, and actually, other than eating a lot more gluten, I've been eating good stuff. Well, mostly. Eating gluten has been awesome, I'm not going to lie, but I've had this nagging voice in my head that keeps telling me I'm better off without it. It's really hard to tell because my meds are working so very well. My stomach is in good shape. Yes I wanted to go gluten and dairy free so that eventually I could come off the meds but the doctors have me convinced that that will never be an option. (or will it???) Argh! So confusing. And despite the fact that I'm eating gluten, I still find myself in the gluten free section at Stop & Shop and do you know what I found there??? A ton of Kinnikinnick foods!!! They are now stocking it regularly!!!! I was so excited.

Well, the bottom line is, I still don't know if this is going to be a gluten-free life or not. I'm thinking I just might give it another go and see what happens. If my skin clears up by the end of the week, I'll definitely have my answer. Wait, did I say the end of the week? That means this experiment starts... tomorrow!!! Oh boy, here we go again!!!

ETA: I also noticed in the last couple of weeks that my bruising problem has come back. For a while last year the bruising went away but just recently I all of a sudden started getting mysterious bruises again without any recollection of bumping myself. I have always had this problem but over the past year when I was pretty strict on the GF diet it had gone away. I never linked it to that until this past week when I noticed it coming back, plus the acne. Any thoughts?

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Inspiration

Afternoon Snack

Today was a pretty good day. At the end of work I was looking forward to getting a workout in when I got home. I had a huge craving for peanut butter and I knew I didn't have any at home so I stopped at Whole Foods on the way to the train. When I walked through the produce section one of the workers was re-stocking the strawberries. I hesitated, but kept walking to the peanut butter isle where I saw an old man sampling the almond butter right out of the serve yourself nut grinders. Great. I waited patiently for him to move so I could get what I needed. I was thinking of almond butter for a change but it was too expensive so I just grabbed my old faithful peanut butter. I started walking towards the registers but those strawberries called me back. They had local strawberries, but I wasn't paying attention and grabbed the ones from California. Oh well, they were cheaper anyway. I walked over to the T and broke into the berries right away. (I didn't rinse them, I know... but I'm still alive!) They were sooooo good. When I got home I made the snack you see above. My intentions were to eat that quick snack and head over to the gym. But somewhere in there I remembered that I needed to go to CVS for a prescription refill and also to the grocery store and I was also starting to fall asleep on the couch. I could list a million excuses as to why I just couldn't go to the gym tonight, but I won't. I just didn't go. Oh well.

I was craving peanut butter because I've been reading some new blogs and it seems like they eat lots of nut butters all the time! These ladies are so inspirational and they are really helping me to stay focused while I try to get back on track. Kath, Tina, Jenna, Meghann, Heather, and Caitlin are the lovely gals that are blogging all about their healthy ways and it's really awesome. I love each of their blogs, check them out!

Blogging Rocks

Well, despite the fact that posts have been slim, readership remains steady. Thanks guys!!! I'm almost at 20,000 views. Who woulda thunk????? I love blogging!

I finally went to the gym last night and got in a pretty solid workout. It felt great. I feel great today. I will go tonight for cardio and core. Maybe hit the heavy bag for a bit.

I wish I had some photos to post! I am not in love with the camera I got for Christmas and my DSLR is too bulky to carry with me all the time. I'm gonna start carrying it with me anyway, I miss taking photos.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Sugar & Spice and my . . . ?

Today I became a fan of Vin Diesel on Facebook. What's the significance? I don't know. Other than the fact that looking at his photos makes me want to go to the gym immediately. I mean of course I don't want to look like him, but I do want to be in kickass shape like him.

Why is it, that each year I tell myself "this is going to be the year!" and yet my thighs still look like a topographical map of the white mountains. Why is it that when I feel good because I've been eating good, I always think that it will be perfectly OK to eat something gross, just this once, which inevitably makes me feel miserable? Yesterday I had been on a roll for about a week and then I decided that it was going to be the day that I would have a greasy spoon kind of lunch. A BLT wrap with french fries and a brownie (?!?!) for desert, orange soda to wash it down. Had I just eaten the wrap with a bottle of water I would've been fine, but throw in the rest of the garbage and my stomach fought back. Hard. I have been repeating these patterns for YEARS. It's no wonder my intestines are damaged. I imagine there's only so much sugar and fat they can take! It's a vicious cycle.

Well I've HAD IT!

Here's the thing, as you know, I've thrown myself back into the dating pool. It's freezing cold and I want to jump out but if I ever want to really learn how to swim then I must stay in. I must STAY IN. Yesterday or the day before, I forget which, I signed up for a new site that my friend told me about over the weekend. I only have one photo up right now and I know that I need more. The thing is, I don't have a lot of recent photos of myself. I've avoided the camera because the truth is, I am NOT happy with my appearance. Ironic, now that I'm pretty much happy with everything else in my life . . . And it made me realize that until I am happy with how I look in the mirror, I'm not going to be able to be in the right frame of mind to date. I know what you're thinking, when are we ever TRULY happy with how we look? Well, 6 months before I was diagnosed with Crohn's I was thrilled with how I looked. I had worked hard over the years eating mostly right and working out consistently, only to have all that hard work flushed down the toilet (haha). So here I am, no steroids, health issues pretty much under control, and in the best place I could be to bring back the old me. The one that didn't think twice about going to the gym after work.

I miss writing here. I have to admit it. But I've felt a little guilty since I've been eating gluten with reckless abandon and not feeling badly about it. After the past year of illness and tests and concerns about food intolerances, allergies, etc. etc. etc. I just got tired of it and decided to just let go. "Screw dieting, ya know? Eat what makes you feel better." (Thanks FG!) I went out to dinner last week with two of my girlfriends that I haven't seen in a long time. They chose an Italian restaurant and I was hesitant, but decided to just go for it and see what happened. I ordered Chicken Marsala for dinner and had little Italian pasteries for desert. It was absolutely DIVINE. And you know what? It didn't make me sick. I felt absolutely fine. But yesterday, I ate that crap, and it made me horribly sick. Do you know what I think now? Quality food = happy digestion, crappy food = crap.

Do I still believe in food intolerances and allergies and whatnot? Yes, I most certainly do. I just think of it differently now. Every person has her own battle to fight and she will fight it however she must. It's a long, sucky road but ultimately, each one of us will find our answers. What works for one will not work for another. For a long time I thought that going gluten free would cure just about any illness on earth. Have an autoimmune disease? Go gluten free!!! And while you're at it, go casein free too!! It's the only way to live!!! But then I started eating bread again and it wasn't making me sick. How could that be? Oh internet, how you've betrayed me. Talk about information overload.

So what does this all mean?? It means this blog is no longer what it once was. It's time for an overhaul. A new perspective. A more relaxed approach perhaps. What will it be called? Sugar and Spice and my. . . ? I don't know yet. But I want to write more. It's still gonna be about food, just a different approach to food. It will still include foods that are allergy/intolerance friendly and will be marked as such. It will still talk about life with Crohn's disease. And who knows what else? I hope you'll keep reading! It will be interesting to see where I go from here, but I'm starting to feel better already.

Monday, June 15, 2009

No news is apparently good news.

So here's the thing, I've been feeling pretty good and have had nothing to say about it. I am sooooo tired of talking about food, and Crohn's, and gluten and casein and and and...

I've been healthy. I've been eating pretty much whatever I want. I'm ok with that. It's all good. What does it mean for this blog? Silence. I don't know what I'll be writing about now. Getting through the past year was crazy hard, but this blog and the community that surrounds it was a major help for me. And I feel really awesome. And I am just so over writing about it these days. Ya know what I'm sayin??

I have dated 4 different guys over the past 2 and a half months. I haven't dated that many guys in the past 2 years! It's definitely good to be getting back out there, and my perspective this time is totally different than before, which is also good. I really just want to enjoy the summer and relax for a while. I haven't been able to just relax in so long. It's not gonna be all rainbows and gum drops because we have some work issues to deal with, but it should still be a hell of a lot better than last summer.

I don't know when I'll write again, or what it will be about, but the blog will stay up anyway and we'll see what happens next. I have enjoyed writing and I may be back soon. But for now, I'm just gonna rest.

Friday, June 5, 2009

I'm still here!

Sorry for the lack in posts, I haven't had much to write about. Things with the boy didn't work out... but it's all part of the master plan and I have a date with a different guy tomorrow...

In the meantime, check out this video... I absolutely am in love with it.