Apologies for the lack of posts! You know, sometimes you just need to step away from the computer for a while. But I'm still here, and the sugar experiment is going well so far. I haven't gone cold turkey but I'm making progress and I think my skin is responding. Now, on to the real stuff. First, the rants:
This morning I'm sitting at my desk having a lovely day, when a guy that used to work for us stops by. He was "let go" almost a year and a half ago. Pre-Crohn's diagnosis, which means pre-steroids, which means the last time he saw me I was at my lowest weight. Now I realize that people have noticed that I've put on a few pounds, it is what it is. Most people know why/how it happened and are sympathetic. Well this guy takes one look at me and goes "what did you do to yourself?" and I'm thinking I have spilled ink on my shirt, or fell and scraped the skin off my face without noticing and that's what he's referring to... but I check myself out and nope, still look the same as I did this morning. So I say "what do you mean??" and he pauses (very briefly) and says "Well it looks like you've gained some weight!" ....... collect yourselves.. I'll wait...
Ok, good? Yeah so I sharply reply "Well I was diagnosed with CROHN'S disease last year and was on STEROIDS and gained THIRTY POUNDS!" and he says "Well you still look good, your face just looks a little pudgy, or puffy" or whatever.
I didn't cry. I'm not a delicate flower. But I was upset. My first immediate reaction to myself was that I was kinda glad to hear it. Weird? Well I worked so hard to lose the weight before, only to instantly gain it back through no control of my own, and then do nothing to fix it. I have been off steroids for 10 months? 11? And I've talked a big game about losing the weight but have not made any valiant efforts. I kinda needed that slap in the face. It's nice to hear blatant honesty sometimes. And the truth is, he didn't mean to be mean. He and I used to talk a lot about losing weight and eating right and working out because I he had seen me lose the weight before. So I'm sure to walk in and see me heavier than he's ever seen me was a surprise. I'm not mad at ya E. Thanks for the wake up. So I did what any sane person would do, I ate a cheeseburger for lunch. With french fries. I thought about starving myself, but that's just eating disorder behavior. I could've had a sensible lunch too, but what fun is that? Aren't I always preaching about moderation? So yeah, I'm over it. But now maybe I'll try a little harder.
Now, onto the Raves. I went to Burton's on Friday night with Liz and Sally. Liz moved away :( but she was back in town for a couple weeks so I was excited when she asked to plan a gf dinner out! Sally had been there before so we knew it was safe. I wrote a review on Yelp so if you want to read more about it go here. I'll just post the photos here:
Gluten free dinner rolls with herb butter: YUM
Sierra Nevada Kellerweis (not GF! but awesome)
Chicken Roulade with Lobster Risotto - oh.my.gosh heavenly
Yes I ate gluten and dairy and yes I paid for it, but it was so delicious!!!! That's one of the drawbacks of having crohn's instead of celiac. I'm not required to eat gf/cf I just choose to, which means sometimes I choose NOT to. Sometimes I suffer, sometimes I don't. But I feel a heck of a lot better now than I ever have, so I'm not complaining!!